'90s Angst

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As of late, I can't explain it, but I feel like a teenager again. It isn't just in my '90s style grunge outfit, either. I have so much anger and angst about a lot of situations in my life. I feel like it comes down to a transition period in my life, and many of the events in my existence being out of my control. That is what reminds me so much of my teenage years... the part where I have no say in things.


I asked Spencer the other day, "have you ever felt like you couldn't say or do anything to anyone that can change something about a situation? I just want to scream inside because I know no one cares and there is nothing I can do about it." He replied and said, "that is hopelessness." 

I began to understand and remember (as I have a lot lately) what it was like to be a teenager, and even more so for some of my students that have even less control over their situations than I did when I was a youth. Let's be honest and open as well, I am not depressed. I have suffered from depression before. This is not it. I still have hope, laughter, enjoyment, and seek out those things that bring me more of those. This is a general discontent, as I have been calling it to others around me. Perhaps, a slight depression over the situations that have such restrictions, but when I leave those settings, and have about an hour to forget about them, life is good again.

It's funny, because of the nature of this blog, having many viewers, and because of the nature of the environment of my career as a teacher, I can't be completely open about my feelings here without repercussions.  I will say that I have lost my ambition as a teacher. Two years in, and I am worn down. If you are ever interested in learning more, I would love to have an in-depth conversation about it with you! Email me, call me, text me. We can talk about how our education system, and how we as humans, are failing the future generations. We are cheapening our society.

And I have no control over that.

But until we have that conversation, I will sit quietly, raging against the machine through my silence, voicing my discontent through pictures of me wearing '90s grunge outfits and screaming at the camera ;)

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15 comments:

  1. Loving these photos and I'm with you girl! I'm feeling all the angst!

    -Kat
    http://bit.ly/2muJRTS

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  2. Oh my gosh, you're so cute! I totally miss the 90's grunge phase!

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  3. These are so fun! Loving the denim on denim!

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  4. I am so with you on the 90s vibes -- literally going to a Backstreet Boys concert next week! Talk about a trip down memory lane! XooX

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  5. I love the layered look with the flannel!
    www.kayleighskloset.com

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  6. I love this 90s inspired look! I can't imagine the burn out you must experience as a teacher! Hang in there!

    Maggie
    www.polishedclosets.com

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  7. Love this denim on denim look! Such a great way to bring back the 90s!

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  8. Girl I feel you. Having a daughter so young and not really experiencing being a teen has me feeling like I'm going through a mid life crisis these days.

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  9. I am definitely still a 90s grunge kid.

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  10. This post is perfect - your photos are always on point!

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  11. These photos are so fun! I love the cart in some of them haha!! This outfit is so chic!

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  12. Such different and fun photos! Very 90s

    Xo, Nina
    Law of Fashion Blog

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  13. You are having way too much fun! :) I love this trend!

    xx,
    Amanda || www.fortheloveofglitter.com

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